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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
For you.

Dear fucked society,Dear fucked up society,
Why do you take our rights?
Our human rights?
To who we love?
To who we are.. To our image?
Tell me.

You force images down our throat;
Images of airbrushed, false looking
people. You want people to look
more skinny and cause anorexia,
More along the hidden line that
you dig under the ground like
a dead forgotten body yet always there

You show us that its not right to be gay,
lesbian, bi-sexual or transgendered..
And then wonder why the suicide rate is
so fucking high. You cause the nightmares
and terrors of our family not accepting us
our

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

I don't fight fair...Cut, bruised, scraped, forgotten. These things I have all been at least once in my life. But it
hasn't made me stronger, just more determined in my fight to live another day.
I know the ways of my attackers, studied their movements, learned their tricks and gleamed
their true motives. I have seen their weaknesses, their faults, theirs flaws and I have kept
them close to me, ready for use when the next time we meet.
They are cautious of me, they have weary from my adaptive ways, knowing that I can fall only
so many times. They are scared for I have the key to their defeat; not by sane ways, but by
the ways they fear to tread.
One look, one stare, one gesture and they will run in fear for the truth is upon them: "I won't
live restrained anymore."
"I have seen your errors an played on them like strings on a violin. Moved you to place were I
make the rules. Put you on display for all to see what you have done, and what will be done."

You ha

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

lifelinesI fear the sound of sparrows
and the density of leaves
against dew-muffled blades
of grass,

and I'm drowning
in the sky.

My skin has learned how
to peel itself off
without causing a commotion
in my marrows or
even show the slightest hint
of pain,
and my heart has learned how
to hush the stars in their wake
and keep it all a secret.

There's a sea in my mouth
and I can't swim.

There are lifelines
cast like these and it will
all end with the same tragedy.

the carbon footprint of an arsonistyour crystal promise
rings drip off your glacial
fingers into global

nothings. the geodesic
dome you used to live in
is a hell you keep

clean-shaven and concentric,
spiraling away from you,
wrapping your unborn

children up in paper goblets.
for minimum wage, any geryon
would cling to the terza rima

inkblots on your
collarbones, his spongy molars
diving into your right

angles, his familiar laughs
killing your skin with
shivering cuddles and you

shudder, being self-diagnosed
at center of the universe,
your hair a nest of radio

waves, the one cosmic
principle drumming on the ancient
heart of mystery.

but amateur porn always
made you cry

of seafoam thronesFrom Atlas’ hands she wept to me,
atop Africas and South Atlantics;

this is one situation unaffected by
ember eyes and windy lashes
(it has no anatomy).

You are sparrows stranded
in tiny crevices and cliffside love,
though you rebuke flight
in the fear of chipping feathers.

So what do you do?

You reach for my soul,
coveting flight with shaking
dainty arms…

and perhaps I’ll let you:
With flytrap lips and
glass shaped hips…
you are unfit for anything but
sight.

(But beauty isn’t everything)

The WaitingBones hang from trees
Hollow windchimes rattling
In the sullen breeze

Dark clouds make noonday dusk
Rusted buttons on threadbare coats
Sorrow drips like rain

(From the fingertips of this dead-rose day)

Hoofprints kill the grass
Where the dark horse steps
The rider unsmiling

The tired and ill amble about
Cattle awaiting the shoulder tap
To sleep, but not to dream

(To become whatever the second birth dictates)

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Ashes on the SandWe put you in
a crystal box
small enough for me
to hold in my
hands
(and that thought gives me
chill bumps)
The tide was high
where we took you
and I remember thinking
how pointless it was
(you were just going to wash
up on the shore)
Everyone was quiet
and some people cried
and as you were tossed
out to sea like so
many grains of sand
I thought how much
I missed you
(Now I think how much
I hate you
for leaving)

A Charmed LifeDoll-faced men and sinkholes, ancient tombstones
Leaves piled ankle-deep, falling down
Old wells, old graves, old friends lost
Pirate adventures in Neverland
Don't go into that barn

Ponchoboy and Rangergirl rise from the ashes
From the cold river, from afar
Remember before they were born, how they
Held hands and jumped into the world
Don't go into that school

Ladybugs, pennies, notes from the dead sun eclipse
Scrape the inside of your skull for clues
All the old dreams are still there, petrified
You are a rock of ages gibbering
Don't go into that factory

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Curious QuestionsSo what is this for?
Why is this here?
Where is this from?
What should I fear?

Boredom comes to those who sit you say
but that would be better than what i do here

too much time on repetetive tasks
leaves my mind free
all of the universe to ponder

so here ill rant about this world
wherever my mind has seemed to turn

how can such an endless space exist?
forever and ever
never to end
how is this possible
please tell me dear friend

how did these characters come to be
these words i write
that you understand
takes more than one mind to comprehend

why is the ground we "treasure" dying?
we took what we wanted
all that we wanted

Keep GoingIs it over yet?
Suffering in bitter agony
I can't remember what was before
All is lost again with tragedy

My insides screaming out so loud
As they sit and watch me drown
Fake smiles plastered all around
As I quietly break down

I merely keep on fighting
I can't go on this way
But I will not stop trying
There's really nothing left to say

I see you here right now
So please keep holding strong
I will make it through
This is not a swan song

Alone again you feel
Well you're not the only one
Scream out your pain with me
They'll know that we aren't done

You can? You can't?
You think I give a rip?
Please take my hand now
And we

Just ScreamI wish I could explain to you
This feeling that sometimes comes over me
I'll try my best with the words I have
Try my best to make you see

Chest too heavy
Heart a thousand pounds

Every breath I takes a struggle
Every breath let out brings pain

Black tears running
Trembling, cold
At my limit
With nothing left to give

A whirlwind in my chest
A storm blowing me away
Tearing me to pieces

Nothing left to do
But grasp myself together
Nails digging into flesh
To keep from flying apart

A shattered hole inside
Nothing but ribs to hold me out

Darkness fills my vision
I can see no escape
All is lost again

I know I've been here be

SolitudeI need to get away
I need to be alone

Where no one can see me
Where no one can hear me
Where no one can touch me

Do they see me anyways?
Do they ever hear my screams?
Will I ever stand to be touched?

Am I too fragile?
Am I too far gone?

Alone in sweet solitude
You drove me here
Within myself
With everything to fear

Hopeless WarriorSlipping
Dripping
Tearing inside
Nothing to save me but my silly pride

Gasping
Grasping
Screaming my plight
At my limit with no end in sight

What does it take to fight without hope?
What does it take to grab onto that rope?

My grip is loosing
Nothing below
I can't hold on
I won't let go

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Pull The Trigger

by ~bleedingAce, Nov 26, 2012, 4:47:26 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Load it up
Close the action
Aim it
Pull the trigger

Load it up
Close the action
Aim it
Pull the trigger

Do it again
Repeat, repeat
Breathe now
Repeat

I've done this so much before
Could do it in my sleep

Breathe now
In and out
Don't move
Or you'll be beat

Back is breaking, just keep going
Just stay on your feet

Load it up
Close the action
Aim it
Pull the trigger

Load it up
Close the action
Aim it
Pull the trigger

Sweat dripping
Can't speak a word
Can't move
Or hardly breathe

If I could, I'd speak my mind
But you won't listen to me

My body's breaking
You can see
But my heart and my mind
Are breaking me

I know I have a talent
But it was wasted on me

Load it up
Close the action
Aim it
Pull the trigger

Load it up
Close the action
Aim it
Pull the trigger

You thrust it back into my hands
You want me to repeat
You don't care what I aim for
But next time it could be me!

Load it up...
Close the action...
Aim it...
Pull the trigger...

I pulled the trigger one last time...
And now I'm finally free

Pull The Triggerby ~bleedingAce

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

©2012-2013 ~bleedingAce

Pretty creative title! no? xP

Just another poem i wrote. (happy kitty? i didn't call it crappy)

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Mood: Love

~6-9Changeling Nov 26, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Loves loves!!! In with Bullet out with Hearts is what this reminds me of right now XD

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~bleedingAce Nov 26, 2012

Yaha! i should really color that now!

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~6-9Changeling Nov 26, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Yeaa!! Oh! I finished mine!

That damn arm is so weird!

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~bleedingAce Nov 26, 2012

Hahaha!! i pretty well fixed mine. its kinda small but whatev. damn it was hard tho!

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~6-9Changeling Nov 26, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Its such a difficult pose >.<
Conner's jacket is just like WTF DID YOU DO TO MEEE on that arm |D

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~bleedingAce Nov 26, 2012

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! XD XD XD OMB!!

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~6-9Changeling Nov 26, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

That's what its telling me -_- XD

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~bleedingAce Nov 26, 2012

0_0 XD

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~FogandDreams Nov 26, 2012

yes and love it! =^w^=

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~bleedingAce Nov 26, 2012

thanks. & im prob gonna say that again sometime later. i just cant help it!

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