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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.
UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"
Battle in my MindEat.
    Don't eat.
Take it easy.
        Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
            Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
                You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
                    You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
                        They don't understand.
Let me help you.
                            You don't understand.
Show me.
                                No!
I love you..
                                   
WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.
In The Daylight
In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat
Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane
wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.
Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway
We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.
 
It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.
 
We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.
 
There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so
LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.
Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.
Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop
Lost In ConfusionLost In Confusion

My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?

The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..

Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?

I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo
Deactivatedthere are voids and black holes
and wounds,
papercuts sinking deep into
finger fissures
only to meet the unmarred love
of bones, strong and
bare and pure.

dark oceans are bleached
into tears that leave nothing
but sea salt in my lips

and my words are injustice
to the death of
your poetry.

this is me
drowning,
trying to be
you

trying to preserve the ardor
of your words
and the honey sweet taste
of your passion

it's also
how my lungs work
(when I don't read something from you
I die more than a little on the inside).
With This RingWith this ring,

I swear to keep myself pure.

To not give myself away until the night of my marriage,

To the one whom God has chosen for me.

With this ring,

I swear to avoid the temptations

That may lead me astray

And defile me.

With this ring

I swear to not only keep my body pure,

But to keep pure my mind.

To not think perverted thoughts,

To not corrupt myself from within.

With this ring,

I swear that all of what I am will be pure

For he who is to be my husband.
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It StoppedI want to cut out my heart
And watch it stop beating
Lay it underneath the moon
As my soul would start pleading
I'd close my worn eyes
Though I'm no longer dreaming
Which is why I cut out my heart
And watched it stop beating
TrappedA lost girl trapped alone
In a castle, strong as stone
She couldn't find the key
Couldn't escape and be free
As she struggles to find herself
She gets on a knee to plea
For a Savior to be her knight
She just wants to be free

Her heart may turn to stone
If she's trapped here for too long
The only company she has
Is the melody in her head
It rises from the strings
Up into the sky
She would follow it if she could
But she feels the end is nigh

Why could she not fly
Could not follow the sound
She would rather die
Then stay here on the ground
Alone in her dark confines
She cries alone sometimes
She can't fight the tears no mor
A loss of lovesMy loves have all left
I can't go on
What shall I do now?
Now that they've all gone

Of fantastical beasts
Worlds of magical feats
And adventures of daring
and tricky deceits

A strum of the strings
A stroke of the keys
Of a heart now set free
No longer silently

Of thoughts brought to life
By weapon of graphite
On a world of two dimensions
My fingers did fight

Lost now without
My lovers divine
Can I fight for them back?
Can I claim what is mine?
HateI hate myself
I hate my hair
I hate my face
And what I wear

I hate myself
I hate my mind
My imagination
And all of mankind

I hate myself
I hate my heart
I hate my pain
And how I fall apart

It hurts me when others
Say these things
Yet I feel them often
On poisonous wings
Last HopeYou're my last hope
My last chance
Can you take that pressure?
Can you save me?

This unbearable sadness
That never ends
Haunts me everyday
Choking me now

These attacks of fleeting panic
No reason to be afraid
Yet I can't stop shaking
I can't catch a breath

My attempts at freedom
The knife I held
far too many times
Nearly tasted my blood

I don't want them to know
That would kill me faster
My mask holds me together
Without it, what do I have?

I don't believe in Him
he has never helped me
If he was real
I wouldn't be here on my hands and knees
Begging you please

So what do you think?
You're my last hope you see
You're

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Judgement

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Judgement is the weapon of the fearful
And this foolish habit is troubling and shameful
To judge one another by what you see
Instead of what they may actually be
Is a sad loss of what could be a connection
And all you'll get in return is rejection
For judgement is a double-edged blade
For it tortures those you scorn the way you have them portrayed
And it hurts you as well, the way they look in your eyes
With hate, fear, distrust, at the pride you so prize
And your pride is a thrown built upon your disdain
But in the end, it will be your bane

I wonder if we did not judge so severely
Could we all get along?  Truly?  Sincerely?
Sadly the judging will never end
And now here I shall stop, trying to pretend
I judge as well and as harshly as you
But because I'm afraid of what you would do
You judged me first, you left me behind,
You forgot about me, now alone I'm confined
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This is a poem I had to write for English class. I'm not excited at all to read it in front of the class tomorrow. I'm sure my anxiety will be through the roof when its my turn. Oh gosh now im hyperventilating! Gaaa! I hope I don't have a meltdown, or a breakdown! Ok, calm down Ace. It'll be fine. They probably won't even be listening.
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Mood: Love ~FogandDreams Oct 25, 2012
it is awesome!
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~bleedingAce Oct 25, 2012
thx
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~FogandDreams Oct 25, 2012
your welcome
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~6-9Changeling Oct 24, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Its beautiful Ace! I really don't want to read mine either ughh
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~bleedingAce Oct 25, 2012
yeah D: not gonna b fun!!
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~6-9Changeling Oct 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Not at all!
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~bleedingAce Oct 25, 2012
at least i got mine over with! but it was horrible! i thought i was gonna pass out!! D: but i feel bad u hav to wait till monday!!
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~6-9Changeling Oct 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Chya! Oh nos!! :glomp: Yeah woohoo |P
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